It's not that i don't want to try....

One best online friend of me taught me how to draw characters. He supported me to his best as to keep me trying and make some progress even a bit on drawing. But i just can't get myself to it
So, i ended up quitting, erased my drawing, and put the pencil back into its case

It's not that i don't want to try to draw characters but it has more to it.
I've thrown my pencil since years ago due to keep being insulted during Art Class when i was still in school. Even the teacher seemed like don't even want to see and interprete my drawing on some assignments of the Art Class.
So, i thought that it's useless for me to continue holding a pencil and pen except for writing. Since then, i throwed my pencil away.

But now, lately i tried myself to draw weapons and objects whether the lecturer is late to come into the class. So, i use that short break time to draw or to write or to play games or to just listen to the music.
I try myself to get a grip on pen and pencil to draw stuffs again

Please, don't treat it as if i don't trust you, neglecting you, or think that you're not worthy enough as my teacher, NO. It's just i still and can't just bring myself to it. If only i have more time and experience on drawing, maybe i could do a bit or two, even it's just a rubbish scrap since i'm not talented at all.