Standing up alone upon despair

I've failed..... No, not about my academics....
I failed on my effort on trying to understand artist's feeling which ended up in despair
Yes, i'm just a spammer, who knows simply to spam and share. I can't draw at all, i can't even draw a single line correctly or to connect it here and there to make a pict
I'm such a fool with boots of arrogancy and mask of ignorant

I wish i could understand it and i so want to understand it. But why when i uttered arguments, which is a proof of my concern, one will take it as objection and denial of me? PLEASE NO!!! I HAVE ARGUMENTS SINCE I PUT MY CONCERN ON THAT MATTER!!
I just..... want to know further and make sure whether my arguments are wrong or right. That's all

But why.... why that no one would give me understanding to that matter....
I tried to be in contact with some artists in DA and i tried my best to understand their feelings, but i just CANNOT.

I want to understand it, but i have no strength within myself to understand it, so i need people to make me understand the matter clearer

My dear friends.... please.... give me some light to make me know it brighter and clearer, and don't take my arguments as denial....
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